3rd day of 4th chemo

Phew !!! Tdy edison no vomitting and teeth no pain ( edison prayers are answered). But his appetite so so only and make me stressed of his weight.. tis is motherhood( always soo uptight)  ...will still dig out something to stress even everything went smoothly..  Tdy is sunday and it KKH routine to have patients have their weight taken. Before edison step on the scale..he shake his head and  told me weight sure drop cos he not eating much these few days. The moment the scale show edison weight, he give me a stunned and surprised look.. me too was surprised!! Cos instead of losing weight, he had gained 0.4kg these 3 days.  He asked me Y? I happily told him cos he never vomit. Till now i still dun believe he gain weight instead of losing weight during the hospital stay. I feel  God is trying to tell me to relax and not soo uptight of his weight.  ( Since day 1 of his  1st chemo...my life priority had totally changed. My life  is only involve in his WEIGHT.  My main goal during his treatment is one and only : not losing weight -either gain or maintain his weight is my ultimate  goal - cos for chemo patient , losing weight is very common and expected . BUT I keep telling myself edison will either gain or maintain his weight cos with good weight..he will have the immunity and energy to fight with his devil. Hence, i am always very stressed out his food intake, appetite and everything regarding his weight. Whenever he say  the below sentence...😊it will always brighten up my day " "mummy , i am hungry "" - tis short and simple sentence will immediately bring Joys and smile to my face. I am edison mummy, nanny, playmate and soulmate. I have to always crack my head to find games to play with him , coax him , watch tv with him , do works with him so that he can EAT more. That the reason y i am also soo busy when taking care of him. Even he is sleeping.. i will still try to insert milk into his mouth ...hee hee 😜. Everyday  i am only concern  & focuse abt his weight only. Tdy edison  0.4kg weight gain had knocked Senses to me ( he was 17kg prior to his 1st chemo and as such, he had gained 0.4kg ) .  GOD is telling me not to get soo stressed and uptight of his weight. Even edison got no or little appetite.. he still gain weight. Hence ONLY THINK OF TODAY AND DUN STRESS OF TOMORROW OR FUTURE COS EVERYTHING IS UNDER HIS CONTROL. Praise the God!!